Muhd Fathihi.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010 / 10:59 PM
first and foremost,
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY
MUHD FATHIHI BAHARI.
MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU WITH EXTRA HEALTH, WEALTH AND HAPPINESS IN YOUR LIFE.
AMIN.
it has been a nice journey. as u said bumpy bungee jumping n roller coaster ride. i agree but thats the best i could do on ur birthday. i wanna make it a shoocking surprise =) i am happy with the outcome. tho it was celebrated in advance and just a short one, i hope u did enjoy it. i choose saturday coz we used to have 'only saturdays' hang out. =) it has been a looooooong time since we update our blog. dating period is as sweet as candies. we used to update each other's blog to tell the world how happy we were when we met eaach other almost every saturday. sweeet kan. haha well things changed. i know it has been 'my fault' thingy 'my sucky attitude' and 'my extreme jealousy' for the past 6 months. it must be controled. i know we could avoid getting hurt. getting paranoid n suspicious towards each other. its part of growing up i guess. fathihi, i would want u to know that i am blessed to hv met u. i believe everything happens for a reason. i kept apologizing for all the shits i've made n said. i said sorry but i kept doing it. saying sorry is like saying 'i love you' hais. are things gonna be the same? different? better or worse? hmm it seems that we dun understand each other. giving up isnt an answer. ending isnt a solution. if we are meant to be it will be. crying doesnt help to wash the sins, the mistakes and whatever i've done. it cant make me a whole new person and it cant make things right and it cant turn back time. if only i didnt start it. if only i could be someone nice. someone u could count on to. be someone who could listen to ur rants and give a shoulder to cry on. i am willing to but saying isnt believing. its easier said than done. tho it is simple but i made it complicated. i think too much n too deep and didnt bother about wat u feel. i am selfish ehk. hmm. i've made a promise to change but i am still hazlin in the past. i diddnt change at all. how am i suppose to change? i just wanna be nice not to only u but anyone else. please forgive me once again. i appreciate for everything u've done. i dun need u to do things just for me. i dun need it. i dun need it fathihi. be with who makes you happy. do not ever force yourself. its the feelings n the heart that matters.
i love u. i really do.
love,
hazlin
♥honeystar♥
